Lyrics - Tracks 11-15
Track 11 – The Cross
Hook:
Lord will you please forgive me
Please forgive me for the wrong that I’ve done
You’re telling me that You love me
And You showed it by sending me Your Son
And in Him I’m forgiven
You wash my sins away
Lord Your grace is amazing
I don’t even know what else to say
But all I can say is thank You for the Cross
Thank you for the Cross
Thank you for the Cross
Thank you for the Cross
Verse 1:
For every single time I broke Your commandments for money
For when I used Your name in vain like a blasphemous dummy
For every time somebody purchased some cannabis from me
For being cocky when she said I was handsome and funny
For cheating on tests cuz I didn’t actually study
For every time that I was acting so savage and ugly
For tryna get it when I put my hands on her tummy
The whole time it was God that had a passion to love me
But I rejected His grace set to embrace
The death in my face in a treacherous place
Neglecting the race I’m running, a definite case
Of me deserving the worst, but Jesus is reversing the curse… What?
He became a curse to redeem us from the curse
Jesus was treated like He was the worst
Look at Christ up on the Cross, He who knew no sin became sin
That we might become the righteousness of God
Hook:
Lord will you please forgive me
Please forgive me for the wrong that I’ve done
You’re telling me that You love me
And You showed it by sending me Your Son
And in Him I’m forgiven
You wash my sins away
Lord Your grace is amazing
I don’t even know what else to say
But all I can say is thank You for the Cross
Thank you for the Cross
Thank you for the Cross
Thank you for the Cross
Verse 2:
For every time I was wilin’ locked in idolatry
And poppin’ Molly in folly watching pornography
For every lie that I told and every time that I stole
And every time I watched a woman slide on a pole
For dissing God for diamonds and gold
For every time that I sold something illegal cuz it was profitable
No I wasn’t an honest man, some of y’all remember
I never told the truth, I was the lyin’ king, they shoulda called me Simba
Up and down like a see-saw
Forfeiting eternity for temporary pleasures like I’m Esau
But He was pierced for my transgressions, crushed for my iniquities
So I wouldn’t die His enemy
It should’ve been me on the cross, I forsook His His glory
I’m the one that earned death but He took it for me
I’m the one that earned death but He took it for me
I’m the one that earned death…
Hook:
Lord will you please forgive me
Please forgive me for the wrong that I’ve done
You’re telling me that You love me
And You showed it by sending me Your Son
And in Him I’m forgiven
You wash my sins away
Lord Your grace is amazing
I don’t even know what else to say
But all I can say is thank You for the Cross
Thank you for the Cross
Thank you for the Cross
Thank you for the Cross
Track 12 – Lay It Down
Hook:
Whatever’s holding you back
Whatever got you off track
Now is the time to react
You gotta lay it all down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
If it’s holding you back, why would you let it stay around?
Verse 1:
I did it to myself no shifting the blame
no pointing at no one else
I gotta ask myself what’s holding me back
I’m going slower than a Jodeci track and that’s totally whack
On top of my game, I’m supposed to be that
I forgot to throw off every weight that is hindering
Acting like I’m finna win.. how many times I gotta go back to start and begin again
Man, I should be further along.. word is bond
I think I’m doing it perfectly wrong
Looking like a fool, running with a bunch of baggage
Cats looking at me like “son’s a savage”
Just imagine a runner tryna run his race
And he’s carrying tons of weight
Best believe I can empathize
Had to lay it down and run in such a way that I could win the prize, yeah
Hook:
Whatever’s holding you back
Whatever got you off track
Now is the time to react
You gotta lay it all down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
If it’s holding you back, why would you let it stay around?
Verse 2:
Yeah, like I’m boxing in the ring
Slow motion every time I try to swing
What a disgrace like when I was running the race
Moving slow getting punched in the face
And every time that I try to put up my guard
I’m moving like a turtle my opponent pulling my card
And maybe I’m wrong, but I don’t think I’m supposed to try to fight
with these 20 pound weights on my arms
Cuz it’s definitely slowing me down
Holding me down, my opponent can throw me around
Should I try to throw a punch when I’m totally bound?
I’ma answer that question like I’m homie the clown
Like bop, I don’t think so.. Homie don’t play that
Why are you holding that weight that
Got you stuck in a rut making you fall down
The only way to freedom is laying it all down
Hook:
Whatever’s holding you back
Whatever got you off track
Now is the time to react
You gotta lay it all down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
If it’s holding you back, why would you let it stay around?
Verse 3:
Time to lay it down I’m so ready
The guilt and the shame and the sin so heavy
Way too much to bear, no teddy
I can’t afford to dodge my faith, no Chevy
I lay it down at Jesus’s feet
If I don’t, I’m like a man who lost his belly
I’m seeing defeat
The grace of God is like a ocean deeper than deep
He’s the good Shepherd leading and feeding His sheep
First Peter 2:24 read it and weep
Wait… Nah.. read it and be encouraged.. yeah
Life itself is very uncertain
But praise Jesus, He carries our burdens
Carrying what we’re unable to carry, carrying the impossible like Mary the virgin
Time to shine like the sunlight again
Lay it down man and run like the wind, yeah
Hook:
Whatever’s holding you back
Whatever got you off track
Now is the time to react
You gotta lay it all down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
Lay it down lay it down lay it down
If it’s holding you back, why would you let it stay around?
Track 13 – Counseling Session Pt. 1
How many hearts get ripped apart on the daily
many money say me say many many many
The year was 2020 I got married
but what the marriage cost me wasn’t itty bitty
It was more than a pretty penny it cost me my peace
my joy, and whatever love that I had for myself
And to lack all of that was bad for my health
Emotionally cut and scarred and asking for help
In the beginning, we were so in love
We just knew that we would be forever. This would be for better or worse
Break up? No we would never
We were hype to quarantine. We just wanted to be together
See this was at the beginning of Covid, unlimited doses of affection
Yo we had the dopest love connection
She didn’t wanna leave where she was living
So I left where I was living to be with the woman God has given
I moved in, we were floating on cloud nine
Our dreams finally coming true, it was about time
My kids came on the weekend and we would all hang
Having Bible study every night it was a God thang
It was a beautiful thing when all of this started
There was 7 people in a 2-bedroom apartment
It was actually insanity but we happily
Happened to be one big happy family
Everything was going well, we were settling in
But the task before me was gigantic as the Titanic
I gotta figure out how to manage this dynamic
If I don’t handle it right it could be beyond tragic
I never had a wife and a ex-wife
How can we all get along so we can all live our best life?
My kids mom only called me when she needed me
And it was always only about the kids but it seemed to be
A problem for the wife, this is where things started to fall
She was like, “How come you jump every time that she call?”
But understand I never meant to turn my ex into a single mother
Raising 4 kids on her own
I mean as long as Jesus sits on the throne, best believe me
I’ma be there for my children when they need me
You see how this is far from easy, at this point I understood nothin’
Like either be a good father or a good husband
A man should never have to choose between the two
Cuz baby everything I do I do for me and you
But yo, I know it prolly ain’t easy being my wife
But I need you to be patient with me during this season of life
And together we will rely on Jesus the Christ
But I’m definitely not trying to beef with my wife
It’s getting worse and worse, feeling like I’m immersed in a curse
Nothing I do is working and it hurts
We’re fighting more and more and it’s freakin’ ugly
I’m really starting to question it, does she even love me
It’s feeling like nothing less than defeat, the disrespecting is deep
She’s saying things to her husband I could never repeat
Everything is going from bad to worse
what happened to the love we had at first it’s beyond sad it hurts
That love isn’t being reflected in our communication anymore
I am not being respected
And everything is a argument now
All up in my face talking to me like you would talk to a child
Talking to me crazy but to control my emotions
I gotta take a walk and I end up walking a mile
It starts to happen more frequently… It’s becoming regular.
But I can’t take the disrespect from her
She don’t want me to leave, but I gotta breathe
so please just give me the time that I need
But in the heat of the moment she talking over me
Won’t let me say a word this is totally not how it’s supposed to be
I’m waking up early daily to pray over her
and over the marriage and I’m trying to patiently wait
For God to answer my prayer, but I’m trapped in despair
frustrated, like does God actually care?
About what I’m going thru, what am I doin’ wrong
Cuz she would rather just end the marriage and move along
Track 14 – Broken
Sometimes I wonder which way is up, and when the day is up
I find myself disappointed cuz I don’t think I prayed enough
I’m supposed to be taking up my cross and following Jesus
But feeding my flesh got me believing that we’re breaking up
And people just be saying stuff to make me feel better
cuz I am momentarily facing the temptation of blazing up
I thought I gave it up now I’m buying a back wood
If this is my coping mechanism, I’m going backward
And I don’t wanna backslide, how many times I gotta get baptized
Plus I remember what happened last time
Got laid out, tried telling my sin get out and stay out
But I fell into it, and I couldn’t find my way out
Peeping the people of God as they hang out
Still in the wilderness children of Israel and it seems I’m on the same route
I’m tryna break out but I feel like I’m too broken
Soakin’ in emotion, Lord You’re the One I put my hope in
Maaan I can’t wait to go to Heaven I know a little leaven
leavens the whole lump, it’s the struggle of Romans 7
I don’t understand what I do, man what I do
Is the bad that I don’t wanna do
and what I don’t wanna do is exactly what I do
What do I do cuz I don’t wanna do what I do
And what I wanna do I don’t do…
This is frustrating… I’m just waitin’ for the day
I’m taken and my body returns to the dust
I’m learning to trust but it seems I’m losing the battle
cruising Seattle searching for peace but choosing the Apple
The one that Adam bit adamant on smoking cannibis
To find the peace I’m searching for, the pain is only hurting more
My desire’s to serve the Lord wholeheartedly but a part of me
Is retardedly holding onto what’s holding onto me
Lord I bring nothing to you but an open hand
To receive from the Lord cuz I’m a broken man
Lord, fix me I’m a broken man, but you’re the one doing the breaking
and I don’t know if I can take it and I don’t know if I’ma make it
All I know is I never seen the righteous forsaken
I’m broken, but you’re the only one who can fix me
I’ve been messing up and I’ve had enough
I can’t take it, but I’ve never seen the righteous forsaken
Lord, I’m broken, but you’re the only one who can fix me
Never would’ve made it without your love
I’m not faking, i’ve never seen the righteous forsaken
Lord, I’m broken
I’d rather be broken then to be the broke friend
If I open up it’s only in closing
I told the truth the last time we spoken
To tell you the truth
that’s probably why we ain’t spoken
I got skeletons in the same closet I keep my clothes in
And I don’t close em for nothing
I keep em open
That way you can see the God that’s in me
I’d rather call on his grace
Than call the police
If I’m ever needing an out
It’s never in reach
God ain’t ever bailing me out
It’s better to teach
I found out
Things I was seeking
Is things I would reap
But you gotta do the work
Only dream when you sleep
I’d rather be broken then to be the broke friend
Never have truer words been spoken
Cuz I been broke down not broken
And I ain’t broke now
But could use a lil more motion
And I been losing a little more focus each day
I been doing the same things over replay
Guess I down played what it takes to be great
Of course I sound great
but who gon take this to a DJ
Remember
God the one that got you running in a relay
Every time he move
He ain’t asking you if he may
He locked me up threw the key away
Only so I never ever see another cage
He helped muster up enough strength to turn the page
I ain’t trusting you busters not another day
Talking down on your brother
But you love to pray
Yea I’m down
But not as down as thee other day
God be just be tryna show us there’s another day
And if you lucky enough there’s another day
But you can’t keep talking bout the other day
Gotta live in every moment
like it’s custom made
Even if you stuck in gutter phase
God’ll lift you up before you suffocate
You so desperate to eat
You take your brother’s plate
But I ain’t looking at the menu
That is up to fate
Cuz I been down so many times
I almost love mistakes
Cuz it shows me where I’m at
And what it’s gonna take
If I’m really gonna see a mill in my estate
I have to be real with myself
And see where I could change
Cuz if I play the game then only I’m to blame
And I ain’t tryna play the game
I got another aim
You can look inside my soul
and see a bunch of pain
But God was with me through it all
Emmanuel’s the name
I’d rather be broken then to be the broke friend
Lord, fix me I’m a broken man, but you’re the one doing the breaking
and I don’t know if I can take it and I don’t know if I’ma make it
All I know is I never seen the righteous forsaken
I’m broken, but you’re the only one who can fix me
I’ve been messing up and I’ve had enough
I can’t take it, but I’ve never seen the righteous forsaken
Lord, I’m broken, but you’re the only one who can fix me
Never would’ve made it without your love
I’m not faking, i’ve never seen the righteous forsaken
Lord, I’m broken
Track 15 – Stupid In My Pain
Verse 1:
I was never good at the game of Life, I always fell behind
and I don’t know why I’m always losing at this game
Feeling like everything I’m doing is in vain
I be minding my business, cruising in my lane
Got in so many accidents from lacking sense
just imagine it I’m tryna maneuver in the rain
You would think I would choose another game
but nope I’m just taking these scrapes and cuts
On my heart, taking such bruising on the brain
Multiple contusions I can’t move I’m feeling lame
Not from no broken bones, but a broken heart
tryna go to God, they out here ruining my name
My heart bloodied up, gruesome and inflamed
But that’s when you’re tempted most to do something insane
The heart is most susceptible to be led by emotion if it’s broken
Lord, don’t let me be stupid in my pain
Hook:
I don’t really wanna be out here stupid
All in my pain, wondering why I do this
I’ve been through some things in my life
Tryna weather the storm and get things right
Verse 2:
I done been thru this slow dance, experiencing heartbreak
Then your heart takes matters in its own hands
Now you’re so mad, hurt done turned into anger
And that person finna learn they was burning a gangsta
Pain got you feeling imprisoned in your core
You envision revenge forgetting vengeance is the Lord’s
Because yes we are broken, but we’re called to walk by the Spirit
Instead we’re being led by our fleshly emotions
Cuz we allow pain to dictate what we do
Obedience to the word of God gets thrown out the window
Instead of running to God, we run to what is sinful
And end up regretting our actions cuz we’re led by our passions
Rather than doing what it takes to pursue our healing
We choose the “I’m hurt so I’ma do something stupid” feeling
When you’re tempted to do what’s foolish and insane
Pray that God will keep you from being stupid in your pain
Hook:
I don’t really wanna be out here stupid
All in my pain, wondering why I do this
I’ve been through some things in my life
Tryna weather the storm and get things right
I know that hurting people hurt people
And Lord, I don’t wanna hurt nobody
Will you heal my heart?
Will you help me? Help me.
Hook:
I don’t really wanna be out here stupid
All in my pain, wondering why I do this
I’ve been through some things in my life
Tryna weather the storm and get things right
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